ive quit smoking marijuana and im pretty sure im experiencing anxiety disorder?

im a teenager who recently started using marijuana with my buddies. i have normally been a happy person and no real problems, like im not a troublemaker or a basket case or an asshole or anything. but i recently started getting into weed at around late october of 08, and i was having a great time with my friends, i got more familiarized with it and kinda lowered my guard towards it. i eventually began smoking on the weekdays after school, which was something i wouldnt normally feel comfortable with. and after awhile i got more comfortable with it and started using it more often. then at around march i decided id stop, and thursday was my last day. i was still interested in it during the weekend until i had something that i think it mightve been a small panic attack on sunday. (and since the ‘panic attack?’ i had not wanted to smoke anymore) i felt like i was going to pass out or something, and my heart was beating fast and i was trying to ‘hold on’. that lasted about 10-15 seconds or so and i kept thinking what it was on the long ride home. i had trouble sleeping that night becuase it was on my mind too much, and in the morning i was still feeling pretty bad, until i went to school and i started feeling a little better. when i got home i kinda felt bad and it mustve been because i had nothing to do and my mind wasnt occupied. that week i started feeling better and the weekend following i was almost feeling normal again, and i wrecked on my bike and i told everyone cause it was funny, but i heard about the actress who had an incident while skiing and i got scared and worried for about 3 days until i went to school, but the anxiety had felt worse after that. it started to get better over time, and about 4 weeks since i stopped smoking, i was researching on the internet and discovered that i probably had anxiety disorder. the symptoms and thoughts were mostly what i was feeling. and ive been feeling better lately, but im not 100% better yet. i was experiencing headaches, dizzyness, alot of things worried/scared me for no real reason, i couldnt stop thinking about it. my thoughts are that it might not have just been the withdrawal, but a change of lifestyle may have made me feel weird, because when i smoked with my friends, we laughed at everything and thought about weed alot, and had a fascination in trippy and psychadelic things. and now that i dont even want to smoke anymore, that lifestyle doesnt interest me. i feel emotionally numb sometimes and the symptoms have lessened lately, but the anxiety hasnt. i want to return to my old lifestyle where im not anxious, depressed, and bored. ive been getting better lately though, and im going to see a therapist soon. i sometimes feel like i cant do anything enjoyable until i get better, and feelings and emotions are sometimes stronger than they normally would be, like fear, worry, sadness, boredom, and whatnot. im sometimes afraid of doing things that i like to do as a way to get away from the anxiety disorder, because i might ruin the memories of it when i get better and do it, so itll just remind me of this anxiety. things sometimes disturb me easier than normal, and i feel like im thinking about the future (getting better) too much that im not paying attention on the the present-time. ive been feeling definitely odd lately and its been about 5 weeks, and im just wondering if anyone has any ideas or thoughts on how to get rid of this generalized anxiety disorder. greatly appreciated.

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